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I DO NOT WRITE POSTS HERE ANY MORE

2008-02-18T01:26:00.001-05:00

I've been blogging again, but not here.

2006-12-11T22:59:00.000-05:00

Here. Don't change your bookmarks just yet though. Add that one if you like, but I plan on merging these blogs as soon as I am able to.

School's Back In

2006-08-30T10:00:00.000-04:00

And coincidentally enough, VTEC just kicked in.

Love, Noah

You ever think really hard about the black box theory / abstraction theory for computing

2006-07-16T23:43:00.000-04:00

And how it extends perfectly to the concept of the retail PC? Because it makes perfect sense. The average consumer only deals with the screen, and input devices (keyboard / mouse, etc), so he could give a fuck less what's actually inside of the box, and yes, these boxes are often actually black. Who cares if what's inside is actually decent, or standard for computers? Not the average computer-buyer. But he should. Because there are many, many things wrong with the average PC from Dell, E-Machines, or HP.

Funny.

2006-07-14T12:19:00.000-04:00

To get at a stolen diamond, the mini-crook dons infant clothes and plants himself at the doorstep of an ordinary baby-craving citizen (WHAT THE FUCK!!! --NOAH) (Shawn) and his upwardly mobile wife (Kerry Washington). John Witherspoon, who on TV's "The Wayans Brothers" played Shawn's irascible father Pops, here plays Shawn's irascible father-in-law Pops.

And not very surprising.

Link to a review of Little Man

I am a person who cares deeply,

2006-07-12T13:05:00.000-04:00

About the spelling of words and how big my

vocabulary seems. Because of this, I try to not use the same word in two sentences next to each other, ever. Sometimes because of this, I pause when I'm talking to try to think of the right word.

It's a tough racket.

Good Definition of Royalty

2006-07-12T12:38:00.000-04:00

http://sedition.com/ddx/w/515.html

"Behold, an Entire Ballroom Dedicated to the Arts of Farting and Shitting"

2006-07-12T12:34:00.000-04:00

http://www.alittlebitrude.co.uk/

Need a New Cell Phone

2006-07-12T01:28:00.000-04:00

Face it - the Razr is a piece of shit. I liken it to the Cinderella of cellular phones, being all pretty and dolled up and shit, then the clock strikes midnight and it's back to rags and poor voice quality.

When I get a new phone, in the next month or so, the plan is to cook up some kind of custom ringtone. I'll probably rip it from an NES music file. Other game music is being considered as well. Candidates:

Double Dragon 3 'pause' sound looped over and over
Nothing else comes to mind right now
Didn't read

Useff and I once had all of this shit planned out, Metal Gear Solid codecs and all, but I don't remember half the shit we talked about. Unless things have changed, he still rocks the loop from Ghostface's Daytona 500 on his phone.

Some of my favorite MP3s

2006-07-06T22:00:00.000-04:00

Old poorly encoded 128kbps files that sound perfect.

The magic is in the music.

I stand,

2006-07-04T21:05:00.000-04:00

Momentarily admire my work.

Then I destroy it.

Dream Report: Dirty Harry The Eternal Human

2006-06-29T13:32:00.000-04:00

In my dream, I was in a city of some kind. I was sick, some kind of virus. I decided to go to dinner alone, at a nice-looking Italian restaurant. The atmosphere was great, the food was delicious. Dirty Harry was there too, and he was black. In this dream, Dirty Harry resembled Rudy Ray Moore. He also spoke like him. That's pretty much where the similarities ended though, because he shot like Dirty Harry. Something was awry at the restaurant, and Harry was angry. He was pretty much shooting every mother fucker in sight. I was ducking behind booths and shit, wondering if he had seen me. He kept looking in my direction, but I managed to survive while most others had died. The whole time I was wondering, "why isn't someone doing something about this?"

The next day, tired and confused, I turned on the news. There was a special on Dirty Harry on CNN, and when and how his reign of terror might possibly end. The baseball stadium federation voted to try to do whatever they could to appease Dirty Harry, because traditional weaponry wouldn't work, since he was unkillable. Apparently on one of his adventures he got some kind of Egyptian curse placed on him. The baseball stadium megascreen showed a big picture of Harry with his family. His skin was all grey and shit. Looked terrible.

He had the world in the palm of his hand, but he was the angriest man anywhere, alive or dead...

The last 22 hours:

2006-06-22T15:01:00.000-04:00

Total fucking bullshit.

I've been trying to turn the Nintendo Wi-Fi USB Connector into a generic Wireless Access Point for various reasons.

Basically: I have not been able to connect to my router for the last day, and I've been spending most of my time trying to fix it.

I fixed it a few minutes ago. The problem was fixed not by changing something with my computer, but by turning the router in the basement off,

Then turning it back on again.

Piracy / Homebrew, Your Nintendo DS, and You: A Guide

2006-06-21T13:39:00.000-04:00

You, Your Nintendo DS, and Piracy, originally uploaded by nchase.

I'm testing out the products so you don't have to. More to come.

The Pirate Party of the United States

2006-06-21T02:48:00.000-04:00

BAM. Obviously my fucking thing. Where do I sign up. I wish this was aroud when I got my new driver's license a few weeks ago. When I registered to vote, I would've loved to tell the woman who signed me up that I was a member of the Pirate party.

More about this at Wired News, here.

MMO Post-Addiction Idiocy

2006-06-20T01:01:00.000-04:00

So I'm sitting here winding down for bed just reading a forum seeing how Everquest is going and all of a sudden I am reading this thread about World of Warcraft and how the druid class is a lot like a bard and these crazy ideas pop into my head like "Noah try out the druid class you'll love it you'll fill this hole in your soul where a MMO used to be" and I take out the World of Warcraft box and put one of the discs and my drive then I'm like "WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING" and I put it away.

Bullet dodged!

A Remedy For This Slump?

2006-06-19T22:38:00.000-04:00

I've been sitting around for the last 3 weeks wondering what the fuck to do aside from work (which is not stimulating in the least, and I think it's starting to drain my soul), and now, it just dawned on me: I have a shit load of books queued up on my computer to read, which will help me in life.

The answers, they are always looking us right in the face, but just below eye level.

Wallos.

2006-06-19T21:46:00.000-04:00

Boredom and inability to produce anything of worth -

2006-06-19T18:40:00.000-04:00

Noah of 6 months ago, where the fuck are you?

Sucking at Life: Sleeping Late

2006-06-19T14:51:00.000-04:00

Hi there. I can't get out of bed until 2 or 3pm most days, these days. Sure, it's summer vacation. But, to me, summer vacation does not mean sitting around on my ass doing nothing all day. I want to use my days productively. And I'm sure I could do this, if I could just fucking wake up in the morning and stay up for the remainder of the day. I feel absolutely no motivation to wake my ass up. Full of grumbles.

This web log is on freeze.

2006-05-31T03:21:00.000-04:00

Freeze, web log!

You got 419'ed

2006-05-24T03:02:00.000-04:00

I'm coining this term right here and now. Gonna work it into my "mental lexicon."

Read about why, here.

Sony.

2006-05-21T02:10:00.000-04:00

They're the only ones who don't realize how badly their fucking up right now.

I met god once

2006-05-20T03:27:00.000-04:00

not a very talkative fellow.

Bush is in the closet, Anthrax is a great soup thickener, and death around the corner for millions, says the dalai lama

2006-05-14T02:14:00.000-04:00

These stories and more at 5:))))))))))))))))

Instead of working on one of the two presentations I have due at the end of this week:

2006-05-09T02:31:00.000-04:00

Part of the time I spent procrastinating was taking a solid hour to make my gaim settings work and transfer back and forth between Windows and Linux, and to make sure they worked well, for everything. It's highly satisfying. More satisfying than making progress on two very real projects that are huge portions of my grades? Possibly.

Chindogu. The next internet meme?

2006-05-04T14:15:00.000-04:00

Something tells me there are going to be a lot more stories in the near future on Boing Boing and sites like that on Chindogu. It's just ripe for it.

http://www.boingboing.net/2006/05/04/chindogu_anarchic_wh.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chindogu

Mounting Frustrations With Windows.

2006-05-04T13:42:00.000-04:00

For a while there, the more time I spent working with Linux, the more I liked Linux. I may be reaching a point of diminishing returns on that token, but I can safely say that the more time I spend in Windows, the less I like it now. It has gotten to the point where I really could give a fuck less about the lack of gaming in Linux because aside from that, Windows has just kind of died for me. It's not as nice to look at, not as nice to use, and not as fun as an operating system. It feels like a chore to do anything in Windows, not to say that it's difficult. Just...boring.

I've been telling people for months that bees are smart as hell.

2006-05-03T14:43:00.000-04:00

First we learn that they can recognize human faces, now this.

Bees

The Hidden Profile Effect: I learned something important about group decisions today in school.

2006-05-02T21:07:00.000-04:00

Read this if you've ever had to do a group project in school or at work. It might be enlightening. This is all about a concept called the hidden profile. Let's say you are in a group with just one other person. Two of you. You have a decision to make; you want to figure out whether or not you should incorporate idea X into your project. Logically, you come up with all of the benefits of choosing A, and all of the drawbacks of doing it. Imagine your partner is doing the same thing. As it turns out, you come up with 4 reasons for thinking that A is going to work in the project, and only 3 reasons why it might not work.. We will label your "pluses" as X1, X2, X3, and X4. Your "minuses" will be Y1, Y2, and Y3. Your partner has also finished doing their brainstorming, and has come up with a slightly different set of positive consequences for using this idea in the project. His "pluses" are X1, X2, X3, and X5. His "minuses" are entirely different from yours: Y4, Y5, and Y6.

When you converge to discuss the topic at hand, you're likely to only discuss the point of view that you like more (in this case, the positive). Same thing with your partner. You'll go through your list of ideas, and when you get to X4 your partner will say "oh yeah, I never thought of that!" In turn, you will learn from his X5. In total, you will have 5 positive reasons for going with the idea. The tragedy here, is that between the two of you, there were 6 unique reasons NOT to do the idea, but you never discuss them.

Why does this happen? Maybe it's because we instinctually want to be right, and so we just "jettison" all of the ideas that we have come up with that support our point of view, A. We don't even give the lesser, "inferior" in our mind point of view a second chance. And we really should. I think a way to remedy this would be to try to discuss both sides of an idea even if you only support one of them. It might make group projects better. Lord knows that most of us need to communicate better in tasked group settings...

I learned about this today in my interpersonal communication theory class with Dr. Charles Pavitt, a communications professor at the University of Delaware. You can read more about this at his page on Social Influence here (search for hidden profile effect).

One casting director said to me, “The studios will only make comedies, and those with only four people, two of whom were in Wedding Crashers!”

2006-05-01T22:52:00.000-04:00

We Lost It at the Movies -- New York Magazine

Stephen Colbert airs out the Bush Administration at the White House Correspondents Dinner.

2006-05-01T16:17:00.000-04:00

http://www.vsocial.com/video/?d=26416

A Link to Today's hilarious Jerkcity comic strip

2006-05-01T16:16:00.000-04:00

http://www.jerkcity.com/jerkcity2740.html

Fighting Crime

2006-04-29T23:02:00.000-04:00

(10:44:41 PM) Noah: I saw a shirt that made me vomit all over myself on friday
(10:44:45 PM) Useff: really
(10:44:47 PM) Noah: it said "You looked better on facebook"
(10:44:51 PM) Noah: the guy looked so proud
(10:44:55 PM) Useff: LOL
(10:45:00 PM) Noah: he was disgusted when I vomited, but for some reason, I couldn't stop laughing
(10:45:24 PM) Useff: AHAHAHAHA
(10:47:42 PM) Useff: seven
(10:47:52 PM) Noah: seven deadly sins
(10:48:03 PM) Useff: you can expect five more of these
(10:48:31 PM) Noah: Detective Alex Cross just doesn't give a fuck
(10:48:34 PM) Noah: He just wants to retire, man
(10:50:11 PM) Useff: I just rummaged around in your room with sleeping Dad for the movie
(10:50:27 PM) Noah: did he mumble constantly battering your asshole
(10:50:52 PM) Useff: no but I think I woke him up for a sec
(10:53:45 PM) Useff: "Coroner said this could have gone on for more than twelve hours."
(10:54:09 PM) Useff: "You don't take the time to do this -- unless the act itself has meaning."
(10:54:31 PM) Noah: Are you hungry?
(10:54:44 PM) Useff: I will be
(10:55:03 PM) Useff: "This can't be my last duty. It's gonna go on and on and on."
(10:55:21 PM) Noah: Of all places to be transferred...why here
(10:55:24 PM) Useff: yeah
(10:55:32 PM) Useff: "This should not be his first assignment. It's too soon for him."
(10:55:36 PM) Useff: They had no idea
(10:55:54 PM) Noah: do you want to go out to get something to eat with me?
(10:56:00 PM) Useff: yeah, let me take a shower dunn
(10:56:05 PM) Noah: I'm thinking ihop in new castle
(10:56:13 PM) Useff: That's a drive, but ok
(10:56:13 PM) Noah: I should shower too
(10:56:26 PM) Noah: yeah the reason I want to go is that it's a drive
(10:56:31 PM) Noah: plus there might be black girls to holla at
(10:56:33 PM) Useff: "Gluttony, greed (fingers) sloth, wrath, pride, lust"
(10:56:38 PM) Useff: "and envy. Seven."
(10:56:45 PM) Useff: "You can expect five more of these"
(10:57:00 PM) Useff: Yeah, let me take shower
(10:57:12 PM) Noah: I'm gonna shower and get ready for the day lol
(10:57:16 PM) Useff: HAHAHA
(10:57:36 PM) Useff: Keondra needs dick lol
(10:57:52 PM) Useff: getting in the shower
(10:57:57 PM) Noah: Dude I was obviously
(10:58:02 PM) Noah: talking about light skin girls
(10:58:05 PM) Useff: HAHAHAHA
(10:58:05 PM) Noah: what do you think I am,?
(10:58:10 PM) Useff: I HAVE STANDARDS
(10:58:12 PM) Noah: DUH
(10:58:35 PM) Noah: if the hair ain't good, I get no wood
(10:58:41 PM) Useff: ahahaha
(10:58:44 PM) Useff: I don't know if I've heard that
(10:58:51 PM) Noah: I coined it a few seconds ago
(10:58:58 PM) Useff: that's awesome, use it
(10:59:09 PM) Useff: not around white people though, they would probably not get it
(10:59:18 PM) Useff: I mean, you can use it around them I guess because they wouldn't get it
(10:59:33 PM) Noah: "what makes hair good? :-?"
(10:59:39 PM) Useff: lol

Canibus - Can-I-Bus (1998)

2006-04-28T16:40:00.000-04:00

(03:14:01 PM) Noah: I style with them hammers x4,
I wild with your nana x2,
Doggie style on the hamper x2,
(04:36:44 PM) Noah: Hey so I'm listening to Can-I-Bus for the first time in years
(04:36:56 PM) Noah: Canibus is just so fucking pretentious with the scientific shit, it's amazing
(04:37:29 PM) Noah: "You don't even know the sequences to the human genome project", as if he knows
(04:37:48 PM) Noah: I guess all of his puffing just seemed so impressive in 7th grade
(04:37:58 PM) Noah: Puffery MCs

Edit: I still love Canibus, partly for the reasons listed above. No one does the science-in-rap thing better. The beef between Bis and LL was one of the most exciting events during my childhood, in relation to hip-hop. His debut album was probably my first big musically disappointment. Discovering 2000 B.C. when I thought Canibus had disappeared from the face of the earth was incredible. Popping the disc into my cd player and realizing that even though Canibus wasn't the second coming of Rakim that everyone expected, but that he was something much more than a flash in the pan, has been interesting.

Juvenile - Reality Check

2006-04-20T20:20:00.000-04:00

(08:01:58 PM) Noah: Trying to listen to Juve's "reality check"
(08:02:00 PM) Noah: wish me luck
(08:02:44 PM) Useff: haha
(08:02:47 PM) Useff: good luck, man
(08:02:55 PM) Useff: Apparently it has some pretty horrible songs
(08:03:26 PM) Useff: oh yeah, john k.'s blog has unaired ren & stimpy clips
(08:03:35 PM) Noah: like the ones you showed me a while ago?
(08:03:54 PM) Useff: yeah but more recent
(08:03:59 PM) Useff: not the same ones
(08:04:02 PM) Useff: taking a shower now
(08:04:06 PM) Noah: cool
(08:05:39 PM) Noah: downside of this feeling: I'm drinking a beer now, and I can't concentrate on more than one thing at a time
(08:05:49 PM) Noah: so if you're relaxed and you're drinking beer, expect your focus to drop
(08:06:19 PM) Noah: which just might be the opposite of when I'm getting a slight buzz otherwise: then I am hypersensitive about everything at once (being totally wasted is another thing entirely)
(08:12:58 PM) Noah: I may have heahrd 2 good songs on this whole mother fucker
(08:13:27 PM) Noah: I think he sampled Jay - Z's voice from dust your shoulders off in this song
(08:13:42 PM) Noah: and somehow this producer just changed that beat
(08:13:46 PM) Noah: it's just bad all over
(08:16:30 PM) Useff: sounds like a real winner
(08:17:07 PM) Noah: whoever said this album was good is bugged in the fucking brain
(08:17:27 PM) Noah: http://pitchforkmedia.com/record-reviews/j/juvenile/reality-check.shtml HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
(08:17:38 PM) Useff: Waldo said a couple songs were good but some of the songs are the worst ever
(08:17:47 PM) Useff: nice link
(08:18:04 PM) Noah: this review says sets go up is the best song on the album
(08:18:10 PM) Noah: I skipped that about 30 seconds in
(08:18:13 PM) Noah: I'm done w/ this.
(08:18:15 PM) Useff: haha

New Mobb Deep Record.

2006-04-19T15:38:00.000-04:00

9/16 tracks feature G-Unit members.

It's not really a quality album if you're like me and don't like G-Unit.

But there are a few really good tracks on here. Prodigy and Havoc (Havoc moreso) come correct on a few tracks, even some of those with G-Unit on them.

Get it if you ever loved the Mobb and want to see them continue to make records. Hopefully they aren't locked into a contract with G-Unit until they're in their respective gunmetal-plated graves.

Back on top.

2006-04-19T15:25:00.000-04:00

101% Noah.

The Other Woman:

2006-04-15T22:24:00.000-04:00

Written by Jesse Mae Robinson:
...as sung by Nina Simone.

The other woman finds time to manicure her nails
The other woman is perfect where her rival fails
And she’s never seen with pin curls in her hair

The other woman enchantes her clothes with french perfume
The other woman keeps fresh cut flowers in each room
There are never toys that’s scattered everywhere

And when her baby comes to call
He’ll find her waiting like a lonesome queen
Cos when she’s by his side
It’s such a change from old routine

But the other woman will always cry herself to sleep
The other woman will never have his love to keep
And as the years go by the other woman
Will spend her life alone

IMG_1318

2006-04-14T21:05:00.001-04:00

IMG_1318, originally uploaded by nchase.

IMG_1330

2006-04-14T21:05:00.000-04:00

IMG_1330, originally uploaded by nchase.

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2006-04-14T21:04:00.000-04:00

IMG_1323, originally uploaded by nchase.

IMG_1332

2006-04-14T21:03:00.003-04:00

IMG_1332, originally uploaded by nchase.

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2006-04-14T21:03:00.002-04:00

IMG_1339, originally uploaded by nchase.

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2006-04-14T21:03:00.001-04:00

IMG_1353, originally uploaded by nchase.

IMG_1354

2006-04-14T21:03:00.000-04:00

IMG_1354, originally uploaded by nchase.

Hahahahahahahahahaha

2006-04-13T20:11:00.000-04:00

Oh man, working for Best Buy was a riot. And by riot, I mean a pain in the ass at times. But anyway, check out this news story. I will probably go back to work there in the summer if I can't figure anything else out too.

I feel like science has made great strides and leaps in the last week or so.

2006-04-06T22:58:00.000-04:00

Every time I turn round, something cool is happening in the world of science. Theories are being proposed, disproven, reworked, and great new information is surfacing on the composition of our world and our universe. It's almost like science fiction.

CSW Insight:

2006-04-06T16:54:00.000-04:00

The Charter School of Wilmington: maybe the only high school where it was a good joke to convert your word document to a PDF and then hand it in on a disk

Or write a paper in webdings.

Is this fucking shit Real?

2006-04-06T02:58:00.000-04:00

New dinosaur a turkey

Intelligent Design Doomed. Dude on South College Avenue, stick this in your fucking bible and smoke it.

2006-04-06T02:53:00.000-04:00

Missing Link of Evolution Found; Intelligent Design Be Damned

Someone took all the motherfucking MELANGE out of life.

2006-04-06T02:26:00.000-04:00

Melange is spice, dumbasses. It's not so hard. When I clap, you sing.

Put that in your Solo cup and drink it.

Great Way to Piss Off People Who Take The Bible Literally:

2006-04-05T01:37:00.000-04:00

Jesus maybe walked on ice, scientist suggests

Two Upcoming Sequels That Seems Unnecessary:

2006-04-02T17:56:00.000-04:00

Evan Almighty
Ocean's 13

I nearly spit out my milk when I heard about Ocean's 13. It sounds like a joke. This is the kind of thing people make fun of when they talk about way too many sequels being produced.

Gmail added smart replies

2006-03-23T02:54:00.000-05:00

More than a MONTH ago. Why didn't I notice this? About time, this was so necessary.

PC Game Developers:

2006-03-15T15:08:00.000-05:00

Be smart. Make your games Linux compatible "out of the box." Think about it: there ARE Linux users out there who like playing games (me). There are VERY few games out there that support Linux. The emulation software kind of sucks right now. Wine is free and basically terrible for games. It took me two weeks to get Half Life 2 "working" and even then it was completely unplayable. Cedega appears to be better, but you have to pay for it every month! What the hell is that? Oh, and also, it doesn't work for me at all. What popular game aside from Unreal Tournament 2004 has been released in the last 2 or 3 years that supports Linux? Oh yeah I guess Doom 3 too but that's because id Software is pretty awesome about having all their games playable in Linux. If a developer was smart, they would release a game that would work on Linux, because no one else is doing it. Linux users would pay to buy this game, just as I paid to buy Unreal Tournament 2004 years after it was released, just to have something to play when I'm in Linux.

I just read that Savage 2 is going to have native support for Linux, here. I'm willing to bet that Linux gamers will pick it up just because it actually works on their chosen OS! I think I will too.

Read the news.

2006-03-12T17:18:00.000-05:00

There might just actually be life on Mars. Or Saturn. Or aliens raining down in red rain in India.

Just read the fucking news. There's a lot going on right now.

Dumbasses:

2006-03-09T21:18:00.000-05:00

Looks like there is a new AIM virus going around. This one is a fake myspace pictures link. Make sure your links are legit before you click on them: ask the people who send it to you to verify that it's legit.

If you use Microsoft Internet Explorer, this stuff installs itself automatically...switch to Firefox. Or quit Windows. Whichever is easier for you.

This is a great new humor site to read every day:

2006-03-07T08:18:00.000-05:00

Married To The Sea: a daily comic.

This website comes to the internet courtesy of Natalie Dee, of http://www.nataliedee.com, and her husband who also has a pretty good daily comic site, which can be found here: link.

Game Systems I Miss Dearly:

2006-03-07T02:06:00.000-05:00

Sega Dreamcast

America Developing Hot New Ways of Killing

2006-03-04T20:02:00.000-05:00

Info here.

People I miss in the media

2006-03-03T10:13:00.000-05:00

Billy Crystal

I fully endorse this Vietnamese Public Service Announcement.

2006-03-01T10:56:00.000-05:00

Well, here's something you don't see every day. I've always wanted to see signs here like this. We should have stuff near live wire that says DANGER: YOU COULD FUCKING DIE IF YOU TOUCH THIS.

Stickyrice: No Pink Bird Meat

Article about Windows Vista

2006-02-28T17:51:00.000-05:00

For those who are skeptics (myself included): an article about Windows Vista, and why it will not suck:

Why Windows Vista Won't Suck

A Fascinating Blog. Real life homeless person has a blog.

2006-02-28T00:30:00.000-05:00

Check this out, it's really interesting stuff...

View From the Sidewalk

I don't care about the Olympics. But I did find this interesting:

2006-02-26T23:16:00.000-05:00

Here's a news story about a streaker at the Olympics. Big deal, right? Who gives a shit about the Olympics, and who gives a shit about streakers? Heh.

What they don't tell you is that he had "Golden Palace" tattooed on his chest and he was planted there as a marketing gimmick. Clever.

Damon Wayans has finally lost his fucking mind.

2006-02-26T23:00:00.000-05:00

Man, that was abrupt. One minute he's Homie The Clown...

then he's doing Hanes Ads:

And now the cycle is complete. He's matured into a fully insane person. Proof here. That's a link, for those of you interested.

You Want To Talk About Some Sick Fucking Shit?

2006-02-24T15:49:00.000-05:00

Link. How is that for some sick fucking shit? This guy is disgusting, how does a person get like this? I don't want to describe it, just click the link and read the news story.

Sick fuck.

We should all just take a rocket ship back into the dark ages...

2006-02-24T00:04:00.000-05:00

Abortion has been criminalized in South Dakota. Seriously, when the fuck do you hear about South Dakota except for now, when they have regressed into the past like this? Must be a wonderful place to live.

The Mountain Goats. Attempts to find a topic I can educate a class on.

2006-02-20T17:56:00.000-05:00

John Darnielle is an extremely cool guy. He came to Philadelphia last year as The Mountain Goats. I missed this show and this makes me sad. I've been listening to The Mountain Goats pretty much non-stop lately. The Mountain Goats are awesome if you read books and / or like acoustic guitars. If you do both, you'll probably enjoy the music that much more. Wikipedia entry to get you started. I'd write more on it, but I'm pretty depressed right now and I have a lot to do in preparation for a speech I have to have outlined by tomorrow.

I have no idea what the speech will be about.

You see, I was prepared for this speech. It's an informative speech, the first graded project in my public speaking class. I was going to do it on the recent issue of Google and censorship in China with the debut of their China-based server that hosts google.cn. I did a lot of research about this topic on Sunday, and learned a fair amount about China's history and human rights in the People's Republic of China. Chinese history / politics are pretty cool. My interest in these topics is piqued. Anyway, today I decided against this topic because I thought it'd end up being a snorefest, and the professor wouldn't like it. So, I thought I'd do my speech on the avian flu which might kill a lot of people. After doing a little bit of research, this is even less likely to work out than the Google speech. What I need is something that has a local scope or that will relate directly to the people in my class. Sadly, none of them are tech-heads so all the stuff that I think about most of my days wouldn't interest them. I know a lot of things. I just need to find one or two that I'd be able to expound upon for about five minutes in front of a group of people without boring them to death.

Math Textbooks and Ugly Folks

2006-02-19T15:17:00.000-05:00

Apparently if you're ugly you're more likely to commit a crime. There was a study recently. (link) I'd say this is true, because ugly people are generally treated less favorably than average or "attractive" people. So they get the short end of the stick more often than not, and if this goes on all throughout life, you just might have a social outcast on your hands. But on the other hand, think about the Halo effect. I think that attractive people are less likely to be convicted of crimes. Someone should do a study on that.

Give me your old math textbooks. I want to do some math. I want to learn some math.

Reflection on Television With Emphasis on the Rise of Product Placement

2006-02-17T16:26:00.000-05:00

So, I don't watch much TV. I don't really have a TV any more. I went to my friend's house a few nights ago to watch a show that the group likes called One Tree Hill. This show is on the WB network. I actually kind of liked the show. It was cheesy, but it was good, formulaic in a totally benign way, you know? No one was hurt in the viewing of this episode of One Tree Hill. I couldn't help but notice that product placement appears to have taken over television in the time since I stopped watching it. In the show, all of the computers prominently display Dell logos. I can't remember what, but something else was plugged in the script a few times. Sunkist orange soda was blatantly promoted at a concert in the show. This concert featured performances by Fall Out Boy and Jack's Mannequin, who are both real life bands with real agendas that include promoting their recently released albums. Once upon a time it was kind of a special thing when a real-life celebrity appeared on a television show. But this show had two different bands on one episode, and lots of products being sold through the script. I understand that traditional advertising through commercials just isn't cutting it any more, but I had no idea that entire shows were having real-world products spliced into them. Was this an isolated incident, or is this a common practice today? I myself do not know, but after seeing this I kind of think it's the latter. Oh, also there were a few instances of other artists' songs being played during the show, like We Are Scientists. At the end of the show all of the artists' new releases were shown. So let me know, if you watch TV...is this common now?

I almost drew a phallus today.

2006-02-14T23:50:00.000-05:00

I was bored in my Linguistics class; shit was just going way too slow. So I started drawing squares. I ended up with a pyramid. A pyramid with testicles. I was scared "oh no I drew a phallus" so I drew some blocks around it to make it look less like a penis. Pictures and more information tomorrow. Writing a paper, loves. Fuck you and good night.

It's (Really) Cold In Delaware. Also, A Great Game.

2006-02-13T10:06:00.000-05:00

Like most of the east coast, Delaware was covered in a blanket of snow this weekend. This week sees the aftermath of that snow, and how it will affect shit around here. First thing's first: The University of Delaware isn't closed. It pretty much never closes for weather hazards. I'm not exactly sure what they're waiting for. I understand that it's important that all of our classes are on schedule, because many of them really can't afford to lose even one day. But still, what will it take? Will Gabriel have to come here and toot his horn? Sometimes I wonder.

I woke up this morning and did some driveway shoveling for about an hour. That wasn't so bad. I was just ill prepared for the cold. I had no gloves, and I was newly self-conscious about my shoes because my Mom said they'd be destroyed since they weren't "real" snow boots. I went into the car I was trying to dig out and turned it on to help it thaw more quickly. Neil Young happened to be in the CD player, and working is usually better when listening to Neil Young. I feel like I'm working for Neil himself, and he's watching over me wearing a large, wide-brimmed hat and looking inquisitive, whispering out orders in his ghostly high voice every once in a while. I had to alternate hands at times during the shoveling. I would stick one in my pants by my ass where it was warm, and one would do the shoveling. This was a pretty good system. I can only wonder what people watching may have thought of me touching my ass while I worked.

Gridwars (link) is one of the most awesome games I've ever played. Definitely my favorite game so far this year, and the great thing is that it's free. Supposedly it's a free version of an Xbox Live game called Geometry Wars. I've never played Geometry Wars, so let me compare it to something you may have played in the good old days at your local arcade: basically it's like Smash TV but more fun; you can actually play it more than 10 minutes and not get bored of the concept. Plus, there are really awesome black holes. Here is a link to the developer's homepage where you can see his other games. I have no idea how they are. What I do know is that I'll be playing Gridwars in the coming days.

Peter Benchley is dead.

2006-02-12T22:36:00.000-05:00

He wrote Jaws. Respect this dead man.

An Excerpt From An Internet Conversation

2006-02-12T16:08:00.000-05:00

(11:33:45 AM) TheZionistDevil: i went into boarders
(11:33:49 AM) TheZionistDevil: and i asked if u were around
(11:33:51 AM) TheZionistDevil: and everyone laughed
(11:33:56 AM) SheerKann: heh
(11:34:01 AM) SheerKann: I quit around august
(11:34:11 AM) TheZionistDevil: after a month evidently
(11:34:19 AM) SheerKann: a couple of months!
(11:34:29 AM) SheerKann: I had a job at the geek squad
(11:34:30 AM) TheZionistDevil: lol
(11:34:34 AM) TheZionistDevil: HAHA
(11:34:41 AM) SheerKann: it pays more
(11:34:52 AM) SheerKann: borders is basically minimum wage
(11:35:25 AM) TheZionistDevil: true
(11:35:43 AM) TheZionistDevil: still better than waitin tables
(11:35:56 AM) SheerKann: well I guess
(11:36:03 AM) SheerKann: I've never been a waiter but I know the money can be good
(11:36:10 AM) SheerKann: I'd probably be an awesome bartender at a gay bar
(11:36:13 AM) SheerKann: the tips would be outrageous
(11:36:45 AM) TheZionistDevil: oh the money is good
(11:36:52 AM) TheZionistDevil: but
(11:37:03 AM) TheZionistDevil: i could be a stripper at a gay bar
(11:37:09 AM) TheZionistDevil: 1500 a client
(11:37:15 AM) SheerKann: whoa
(11:37:24 AM) TheZionistDevil: 2 clients a night
(11:37:30 AM) SheerKann: would you be performing lewd sex acts?
(11:37:35 AM) TheZionistDevil: oh yes
(11:37:40 AM) TheZionistDevil: 1500 for two guys to have sex while u strip
(11:37:49 AM) TheZionistDevil: 800 for the guy to jerk off
(11:37:54 AM) TheZionistDevil: 500 for nothing
(11:37:55 AM) TheZionistDevil: he can't touch u
(11:37:58 AM) SheerKann: HAHAHAHA
(11:38:09 AM) TheZionistDevil: my friend does it in philly
(11:38:23 AM) SheerKann: wait wait, so those are the real going prices?
(11:38:36 AM) SheerKann: I didn't realize a man's ass was worth so much money

Catastrophic Dreams Appear To Be Back

2006-02-11T16:23:00.000-05:00

If you remember (you don't have to remember), I have strings of terrible terrible dreams where either I die or everyone in the world dies. I hadn't had one in a while. I just had one, and I will share it. The central event in this dream is a Wu-Tang Clan concert in Ocean City, New Jersey that has yet to happen (this coincides with tonight's Wu concert in Philadephia). Everyone in the dream is just hanging out on the beach, having a great time. A few of my close friends are there, and aside from that I still know tons of people there. It's nice. Sunshine, pretty girls, beach smells, et cetera. I get in the water, and a wave hits us. Then another one. They keep coming. They happen in fast succession and get progressively stronger; it gets to the point where one cannot even get up after the wave because another one is coming in. I manage to get up after one of them (they're still relatively small at this point, nothing to worry about), and ride the crest of the one coming in. This one is pretty huge, and it keeps getting bigger. In a split second it's taller than the hotel that's right on the shore, and I'm still on top of it. As soon as it begins to crash, I wake up. I heard their screams.

Newsflash:

2006-02-11T11:00:00.000-05:00

The Chuck Norris shit is OLD. END IT.

Haley Joel Osment: Apparently not the Next Culkin.

2006-02-09T14:29:00.000-05:00

If you're like me, you spend a significant amount of time in conversation about the trainwreck that usually is the private lives of child stars. Recently I was talking about Haley Joel Osment, and how we haven't really seen him since, well, since his balls dropped. Kid was born in April of 1988. That makes him less than three years younger than me. That makes him...two months away from being recognized as an adult in this fair country. Yeah. Wow. They grow up so fast, huh? Unlike some of his compatriots (Corey Haim, Gary Coleman, Danny Bonaduce, and the indelible Corey Feldman), he hasn't fallen into a spiral of drug abuse and morbid public fascination. Osment isn't exactly on the fast track to the Academy Awards, but he's doing things. There's a game coming out for the Playstation 2 console in March called Kingdom Hearts 2. I'm a fan of the first game. Many people are. It was quite a fine game. Read up on it. It's an action RPG, and Osment does the voice-acting for the game's main character. If you look up Osment on the IMDB(link), it becomes apparent that he's been doing other cool voicework too.

So, next time a child-star drops off the face of the earth, do not automatically assume that they spent their fortune up their noses, in their arms, or otherwise just fucking wasted their futures. No, only do that if you can't find any recent IMDB entries for them.

Crotchrot is a fungal infection of the groin region. Sadly there are no first hand accounts on Wikipedia.

"Playing To Win" - Highly Interesting Article On Videogame Theory

2006-02-08T00:12:00.000-05:00

Link. The author is a game designer named David Sirlin. I found this interesting to be highly interesting because Sirlin breaks down the differences between gaming abnormalities that make the game unfun, and ones that the player just needs to work around in order to become better and develop new strategies. I can think of plenty of times when certain things in games have become "off limits" simply because the players were not willing to use or work around them. Anyhow, just read this article if you're even remotely interested in playing videogames competitively at any level.

The Blockbuster Film is DYING.

2006-02-07T08:49:00.000-05:00

I originally saw this (link) at BoingBoing (link). Compelling study. Honestly I cannot say this surprises me. Remember what I wrote about Big Momma's House 2? (Forgetful) Well, I think the days of that kind of stuff are numbered. The question I have is, what will they be replacing this stuff with? Will it be...worse? I feel that there's a true dearth of originality in the movie industry at large, which does not mean that interesting and original movies are not born out of it. The majority are awful though. Soon enough we'll see change. Change will probably be the cloning of whatever has been a recent success. Get ready to see Brokeback To The Future...for real.

Google Update For Google Whores Like Me!

2006-02-07T01:53:00.000-05:00

Gmail now has the capability to catalogue all of your conversations that take place through the gtalk (jabber) service. You just have to change a setting in your gmail options. You don't even have to use the gtalk program; I use gaim and it works just fine. The information is sent almost instantaneously to gmail. This is cool. Info. This actually makes Gtalk a lot more useful. It's less of a gimmick now. Remote viewing of your conversation logs is something that no other instant messaging service can claim right "out of the box."

There's a Cold Week Up Ahead.

2006-02-06T12:40:00.000-05:00

Well, today's high here in sunny exotic Delaware is 43 degrees Fahrenheit. The rest of the week is going to be in the thirties and shit. That's chilly. That's uncomfortable. That's no way for the city of Newark to welcome me to its heart. I've been here for a few days now and it's been very nice. I enjoy walking everywhere. I enjoy seeing familiar faces around town. I enjoy feeling like I'm a part of this place instead of being some anonymous person who waves to their neighbors from the car but never actually speaks to them.

The news has been interesting this week, hasn't it? That ship that sunk in Egypt. Wow. The first thing I thought of when I read that story was, "Is this going to knock the titanic out of the top spot for Most-Horrific-Maritime-Disaster?" It appears that a thousand souls perished at sea, but it wasn't until after the disaster that things really got heated up. There's rioting in Egypt now. People are unsurprisingly...pissed. Relatives are screaming left and right that someone fucked up big time on this trip. The ship did have lifeboats, afterall.

Ugh, I need to move around. Having this mirror right next to my desk is turning me into some kind of fucking narcissist. I can't stop looking in the goddamn thing. The lookin' ain't even that great, but it's there, you know?

Time to move around.

Brokeback To The Future. I'm moving.

2006-02-02T14:20:00.000-05:00

This is a trailer for a fictional film called Brokeback To The Future (link). It's scenes from the Back To The Future films spliced into a trailer to make it vaguely homosexual.

Light update. I'm in the process of a move.

Internet Explorer 7 Beta is out. I got a new monitor

2006-01-31T14:28:00.000-05:00

IE7 Beta here. This new monitor is huge; 20.1 inches. The native resolution is 1680x1050. Here's a screen capture of my desktop:

I just culled my music folder

2006-01-31T00:09:00.000-05:00

I culled the shit out of it. Too much stuff was going unlistened to. I got rid of everything that I listened to once and didn't like, or even twice, or three times. I got rid of the stuff I didn't like. I was highly impartial. I have freed up gigabytes of space. I recommend that anyone do this because it will make you feel less overwhelmed when you want to listen to some music on your computer.

"Big Momma's House 2" Sells 28 Million; Or, Why My Faith In American Moviegoers Is Rapidly Declining

2006-01-30T03:09:00.000-05:00

"Big Momma's House 2" sold 28 million dollars worth of tickets at the box offices this weekend, making it the second-highest grossing January film opener ever. This surprises me. It makes me wary of the future of Hollywood, and I question whether or not I as a consumer will have a place in the current / future film industry. I feel that there are way too many sequels in production in Hollywood and very few original ideas make it to production. It seems like most movies, even movies that were not so good, are getting sequels in the last few years. Also, classic and not-so-classic movies are being remade at a dizzying pace. Sequels and remakes do not equal innovation, and often lack depth. Why does this keep happening? Because the American public spent 28 million on "Big Momma's House 2" in a single fucking weekend, that's why. Some movie theaters here charge more than 10 dollars per ticket to see the film, and I'm sure that's relatively cheap compared to other places in the country. I'm not the kind of person who wants to spend that kind of money so that I may gain the priviledge of watching roughly two hours of some characters I've seen a few years ago doing the same kind of shit, but without the pep of the original. They wouldn't make these shitty movies if people didn't go to see them. These major film production companies are in it for the money, the business end of your entertainment experience. They could care less about the quality, it's just what sells. So if we communicate that we want to see something different on the silver screen by not spending our money on stuff we saw a few years ago, they'll listen. Big Momma's House 2 didn't come out because the people demanded a sequel and Martin Lawrence was only too happy to hop back into an uncomfortable body suit; it came out because the first one did well, and they wanted to see if they could sell it back to us again, with a few new sight gags and not much else.

Oh My God, This Is A Hilarious Video

2006-01-30T02:09:00.000-05:00

This video (link) has to be one of the funniest most immature things I've seen on the internet in a long time. I laughed out loud at this, and there isn't a lot on the internet that can make me do that. If nothing else, watch it just for the shock value. Author's home page. I did not get around to watching the A.F.I. video linked below that one.

I found some old gum in the pocket of a vest

2006-01-30T01:48:00.000-05:00

I went to put on a vest I purchased about a month ago and I wanted to put a CD I just burned in one of the front pockets. In one of those pockets I found this gum you see here. I have no idea how old it is, but there are a few hairs protruding from the side of the packaging. Fucking ill.

Here's the vest:

Last.fm - I love you. But why are you so wildly inaccurate?

2006-01-29T13:26:00.000-05:00

If you scroll down the right side of this blog you'll see that I added my Last.fm weekly artists chart. Last.fm (link) is a website / program that watches your favorite music player in Windows, Linux, or OSX and sends the tracks you play to a website. On this website all of the information is compiled and you get a nice chart that shows you your listening trends and it will even recommend you other stuff to listen to based on what your tastes seem to be. There are other features too...but to me this is the most important. I only wish that it was more accurate. As it stands, it makes no fucking sense most of the time and it tells me all this wrong information. Apparently from Dec. 25 to Jan 1 I only listened to 89 different tracks. I find that hard to believe. It could be possible that I'm not listening to as much music as I think I am. In any case, I recommend this free service highly. Maybe you'll get better results than I have. I've been using this for quite a while. It's been a year and a few months. I had it back when it was called audioscrobbler. Have fun.

Quick Question For Those Bashing Google About google.cn

2006-01-28T01:24:00.000-05:00

Do you guys think that somehow Google will be able to have a localized server for China without complying to the country's regulations and laws? Google is not above the law. This doesn't make them criminals, they are not "red on the inside" (lol at that comment), they're just trying to provide a more stable service to the vast potential Chinese userbase. Most of the results that Google has filtered out of its Chinese domain would have been blocked by the powers that be over there, anyway. So why all the fuss?

Excerpt From A Novel.

2006-01-27T15:29:00.000-05:00

I'm reading Stephen King's The Stand (1978) right now and it's pretty good. It's been a relatively long time since I've read a King novel (about 10 months I think). Here is a part that I just read that I found interesting. A character is explaining the possible re-emergence of society in the aftermath of a "superflu" which has, apparently, wiped out most of the human race.

Shall I tell you what sociology teaches us about the human race? I'll give it to you in a nutshell. Show me a man or woman alove and I'll show you a saint. Give me two and they'll fall in love. Give me three and they'll invent that charming thing we call "society." Give me four and they'll build a pyramid. Give me five and they'll make one an outcast. Give me six and they'll re-invent prejudice. Give me seven and in seven years they'll re-invent warface. Man may have been made in the image of God, but human society was made in the image of His opposite number, and is always trying to get back home.

Wow, This is like the morlocks or something. Kind of.

2006-01-27T12:51:00.000-05:00

Story taken from Boing Boing.

"According to Standart daily newspaper under the Bulgarian capital Sofia there's a thousands of kilometres of tunnels built between Roman times and Communist regime. They shelter about 20,000 people - most of them are criminals and bums."

Link

I need to read more work by Burroughs...

2006-01-25T13:57:00.000-05:00

Copied and pasted this from a forum post I was reading. Opiates are interesting and scary at the same time. Imagine not caring about life; being a wraith. Wraiths exist in this world, and they are junkies.

I awoke from The Sickness at the age of forty-five, calm and sane, and in reasonably good health except for a weakened liver and the look of borrowed flesh common to all who survive The Sickness... Most survivors do not remember the deiirium in detail. I apparently took detailed notes on sickness and delirium...

The Sickness is drug addiction and I was an addict for fifteen years. When I say addict I mean addict to junk (generic term for opium and/or derivatives including all synthetics from demerol to palfium). I have used junk in many forms: morphine, heroin, dilaudid, eukodal, pantopon, diocodid, diosane, opium, demerol, dolophine, palfium. I have smoked junk, eaten it, sniffed it, injected it in vein-skin-muscle, inserted it in rectal suppositories. The needle is not important. Whether you sniff it smoke it eat it or shove it up your ass the result is the same: addiction. When I speak of drug addiction I do not refer to keif, marijuana or any preparation of hashish, mescaline, Bannistria caapi, LSD6, Sacred Mushrooms or any other drug of the hallucinogen group... There is no evidence that the use of any hallucinogen results in physical dependence. The action of these drugs is physiologically opposite to the action of junk. A lamentable confusion between the two classes of drugs has arisen owing to the zeal of the U.S. and other narcotic departments.

I have seen the exact manner in which the junk virus operates through fifteen years of addiction. The pyramid of junk, one level eating the level below (it is no accident that junk higher-ups are always fat and the addict in the street is always thin) right up to the top or tops since there are many junk pyramids feeding on peoples of the world and all built on basic principles of monopoly:

* 1--Never give anything away for nothing.
* 2--Never give more than you have to give (always catch the buyer hungry and always make him wait.
* 3--Always take everything back if you possibly can.

The Pusher always gets it all back. The addict needs more and more junk to maintain a human form...buy off the Monkey.

Junk is the mold of monopoly and possession. The addict stands by while his junk legs carry him straight in on the junk beam to relapse. Junk is quantitative and accurately measurable. The more junk you use the less you have and more you have the more you use. All the hallucingen drugs are considered sacred by those who use them--there are Peyote Cults and Bannisteria Cults, Hashish Cults and Mushroom Cults--"the Sacred Mushrooms of Mexico enable a man to see God"--but no one ever suggested that junk is sacred. There are no opium cults. Opium is profane and quantitative like money. I have heard that there was once a beneficent non-habit-forming junk in India. It was called soma and is pictured as a beautiful blue tide. If soma ever existed the Pusher was there to bottle it and monopolize it and sell it and it turned into plain old time JUNK.

Junk is the ideal product...the ultimate merchandize. No sales talk necessary. The client will crawl through a sewer and beg to buy... The junk merchant does not sell his product to the consumer, he sells the consumer to his product. He does not improve and simplify his merchandise. He degrades and simplifies the client. He pays his staff in junk.

Junk yields a basic formula of "evil" virus: The Algebra of Need. The face of "evil" is always the face of total need. A dope fiend is a man in total need of dope. Beyond a certain frequency need knows absolutely no limit or control. In the words of total need: "Wouldn't you?" Yes you would. You would lie, cheat, inform on your friends, steal, do anything to satisfy total need. Because you would be in a state of total sickness, total possession, and not in a position to act in any other way. Dope fiends are sick people who cannot act other than they do. A rabid dog cannot choose but bite. Assuming a self-righteous position is nothing to the the purpose unless your purpose be to keep the junk virus in operation. And junk is a big industry. I recall talking to an American who worked for the Aftosa Commission in Mexico. Six hundred a month plus expense account:

"How long will the epidemic last?" I enquired.

"As long as we can keep it going... And yes...maybe the aftosa will break out in South America," he said dreamily.

If you wish to alter or annihilate a pyramid of numbers in a serial relation, you alter or remove the bottom number. If we wish to annihilate the junk pyramid, we must start with the bottom of the pyramid: the Addict in the Street. And stop tilting quixotically for the "higher ups," so called, all of whom are immediately replaceable. The addict in the street who must have junk to live is the one irreplaceable factor in the junk equation. When there are no more addicts to buy junk there will be no more junk traffic. As long as junk need exists, someone will service it.

Addicts can be cured or quarantined--that is, allowed a morphine ration under minimal supervision like typhoid carriers. When this is done, junk pyramids of the world will collapse. So far as I know, England is the only country to apply this method to the junk problem. They have about five hundred quarantined addicts in the U.K. In another generation when the quaratined addicts often die off and pain killers operating on a non-junk principle are discovered, the junk virus will be like smallpox, a closed chapter--a medical curiosity.

The vaccine that can regelate the junk virus to a land-locked past is in existrence. This vaccine is the Apomorphine Treatment discovered by an English doctor whose name I must withhold pending his permission to use it and to quote from his book covering thirty years of apomorphine treatment of addicts and alcoholics. The compound apomorphine is is formed by boiling morphine with hydrochloric aicd. It was discovered years before it was used to treat addicts. For many years the only use for apomorphine which has no narcotic or pain-killing properties was as an emetic to induce vomiting center in the back brain.

I found this vaccine at the end of the junk line. I lived in One room in the Native Quarter of Tangier. I had not taken a bath in a year nor changed my clothes or removedthem except to stick a needle every hour in the fibrous grey wooden flesh of terminalk addiction . I never cleaned or dusted my room. Empty ampule boxes and garbage piled to the ceiling. Light and water long since turned off for non-payment. I did absolutely nothing. I could look at the end of my shoe for eight hours. I was only roused to action when the hourglass of junk ran out. If a friend came to visit--and rarely did since who or what was left to visit--I sat there not caring that he hads entered my field of vision-- a grey screen always blanker and fainter--and not caring when he walked out of it. If he died on the spot I would have sat there looking at my shoe waiting to go through his pockets. Wouldn't you? Because I never had enough junk--no one ever does. Thirty grains of morphine a day it still was not enough. And long waits in front of the drugstore.Delay is a rule in the junk business. The Man is never on time. This is no accident. There are no accidents in the junk world. The addictis taught again and again exactly what will happen if he does not score for his junk ration. Get up that money or else. And suddenly my habit began to jump and jump. Forty, sixty grains a day. And it still was not enough. And I could not pay.

I stood there with my last check in my hand and realiuzed that it was my last check. I took the next plane for London.

The doctor explained to me that apomorphine acts on the back brain to regulate the metabolism and normalize the blood stream in such a way that the enzyme system of addiction is destroyed over a period of four to five days. Once in the back brain is regulated apomorhine can be discontinued and only used in case of relapse. (No one would take apomorphine for kicks. Not one case of addiction to apomorphine has ever been recorded.) I agreed to unergoe treatment and entered a nursing home. For the first twenty-four hours I was literally insane and paranoid as many addicts are in severe withdrawal. This delirium was dispersed by twenty four hours of intensive apomorphine treatment. The doctor showed me the chart. I had received minute amounts of morphine that could not possibly account for my lack of the more severe withdrawal symptoms such as leg and stomach cramps, fever and my own special symptom, The Cold Burn, like a vast hives covering the body and rubbed with menthol. Every addict has his own special symptom that cracks all control. There was a missing factor in the withdrawal equation--that factor could only be apomorphine.

I saw the apomorphine treatment really work. Eight days later I left the nursing home eating and sleeping normally. I remained completety off junk for two full years--a twelve year record. I did relapse for some months as a result of pain and illness. Another apomorphine cure has kept me off junk through this writing.

The apomorphine cure is qualitatively different from other methods of cure. I have tried them all. Short reduction, slow reduction, cortisone, antihistamines, tanquilizers sleeping cures, tolserol, reserpine. None of these cures lasted beyond the first opportunity to relapse. I can say definitely that I was never metabolically cured until I took the apomorphine cure. The overwhelming relapse statistics from the Lexington Narcotic Hospital have led many doctors to say that addiction is not curable. They used a dolophine reduction cure at Lexington and have never tried apomorphine so far as I know. In fact, this method of treatment has been largerly neglected. No research has been done with variations of the apomorphine formula or with synthetics. No doubt substances fifty times stronger than apomorphine *could be developed and the side effect of vomiting eliminated.

--William S. Burroughs 1955

RIP - The Black Table

2006-01-24T18:20:00.000-05:00

I just learned that The Black Table (link), one of my favorite online publications, will cease updating on January 27th, which is just a few days from today. I'm really sorry to see it go. Some of the articles were awesome. Actually most of them were awesome. Everything I read there was awesome.

Gaim 2.0.0 Beta 2 is out!

2006-01-24T17:46:00.000-05:00

Tell your AOL Instant Messenger client to go fuck itself!

Gaim website: http://gaim.sourceforge.net/

Link to download Gaim 2.0.0 beta 2 program (Windows): http://prdownloads.sourceforge.net/gaim/gaim-2.0.0beta2.exe?download

Holy shit! How did they do this with such old hardware?

2006-01-24T01:37:00.000-05:00

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5885351342753379583&q=8088

I think I had a dream about:

2006-01-23T09:50:00.000-05:00

Being harrassed by some strange pedophile. This is funny because I am no longer a child.

I got into a show of aggression match with a duck today.

2006-01-23T00:57:00.000-05:00

The duck hissed at me a few times and I had never seen a duck hiss before. It was BONKERS.

That's just more evidence that makes me believe that birds really are descended from dinosaurs.

Slept for about 2 hours

2006-01-22T05:09:00.000-05:00

I can no longer sleep

(I'll probably fall asleep really hard in about 20 minutes)